I'm sitting here on the floor of my living room, eating kashi cereal, listening to liz phair's 'bionic eyes'... thinking too much on what I should not be heeding. Today has felt so much better than yesterday. I don't know why but for a few days I was in this horrible, dark place that I really could do without. It happens arbitrarily... I'll be fine, even great, for a while and then all of the sudden... BAM! Back into the empty, emotional hell where all my thoughts/feelings/hopes/dreams/being is poured out of me and into I'm filled up with negativity. It's not pms either. It's something I can't explain. My whole body hurts and my hands shake. I try to hide it from most people... I don't like to act like that but sometimes it can't be helped. It's just...blah. I don't know what it is, but it's not fun.
So I've been fighting that for a few days now and hopefully, all it's left behind is this nasty cold that I've felt coming on for a few days.

So I should be starting my new job soon... I hope I like it. Apparently it will involve different things in different places everyday. I shouldn't be bored- which is a good thing because when I'm bored I think too much and end up spazzing out.

I just hope I can finish my EFFING portfolio soon and get into an agency and get a 'real' job. I need the money or I'm gonna become a hobo... lol

OK so dresden dolls tonight in durham with dan! woohoo!
I'm excited despite my cold.